I guess everyone knows that love is the greatest feeling which gives us unsolicited happiness. But we also know that Love gives pain in which people become heartless and mean.
Let me ask you? Have you been involve for that love thingy? Because me? I would say....YES, in any language. I had been in a relationship and of course I had met those painful break-ups. At first it really hurt me, a lot!! but I never let the pain strike me out in keeping on the game. I had been moved on...and that's it, it makes me stronger than the way I am before!
I've learned....
The moment when I had said to myself that I had finally moved on was the moment when I allowed myself to met strangers and make friends with them... 'til it comes to the point that my heart was ready to open it up again and tell the world that "HERE I GO AGAIN, I WILL MAKE NEW ONCE UPON A TIME ONE MORE TIME AND HOPEFULLY END UP ON, ...AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER..." Of course fairy tales don't exist in reality but I do believe that we could make our own fairy tale stories and make it real.. Let me tell you how my once upon a time started....
I had this guy close friend of mine whom I usually with. He's been a great friend, an extraordinary adviser, and sometimes my dream interpreter :) At first, we started to mingle like best buddies and wasted every second just to share laughs and tears each other. Until it came to the point that my world turns into a life with simply between him and me. Through those shy moments, teasing times, corny flashes, scary seconds..he made me fall deeply in him...secretly! I guess through my actions I can't deny how I feel. It was hard at first. Then he started to ask some awkward questions like how exactly I felt for him. I felt nervous on how to answer those tactless matter. When I noticed that he was aware of how I felt for him, I started to put distance. He was confused and asked me why the heck I was doing some poppycock things.
Things were not the same anymore when a friends feeling turn into something new... something you can't express to anyone because even you can't understand how exactly you feel. I don't know what would I do, if only he knew it then he would understand me..but how? How would I explain to him? What if he'll be mad at me? What if we'll end up our friendship because of this bullshit feelings? :|
A F R A I D !
..BUT THE ONLY THING I'M HOPING IS THAT, SOMEDAY, SOMEHOW, I WILL BE ABLE TO HAVE A SPACE IN YOUR HEART :D
I ♥ YOU PANDA ;))
