Saturday, October 27, 2012

All of a Sudden...


Everything I do just doesn't feel right to me. It feels like there's still a missing piece that I'm trying to find and no matter how much I try to find that missing piece,I can never find it. 

When you miss someone you can't concentrate, you can't think, you can't speak, and you can't feel the way that they make you feel when they're around you. It's not an easy thing to miss someone but just know that you have an amazing heart to be thinking of someone else.

What if we made it this far? How would our lives change? Maybe I would have been a happier person than I am today. But maybe you weren’t what I needed. Although I still believe if we were still together I would have been filled with butterflies’ everyday and love every part of it, I think what I really needed was struggle. I needed to be stronger because I succumbed into being so dependent on someone else always being there for me. I guess this was what God intended for me. Perhaps the goal of life isn’t to find happiness because maybe then we would all grow weary and search for more every time our desires are fulfilled. Who I am today is better than who I was when I was with you. You made me very happy but I could find happiness in everything around me too. I needed to experience letting go of something I held so close to me in order to find my own strength that I didn’t know I had and to fight for everything I believed in. Because even though I didn’t win in the end, it doesn’t mean I didn’t try. I can go on with peace of mind and say I did all that I could.

SORRY, I BECAME SO EMOTIONAL AGAIN… I JUST CAN’T HELP IT!


Always,
-Panda 

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