The best way to get over someone is to cut off all the ties. It's
a lot easier when you don't see or hear from them. YOUR FEELINGS WILL
EVENTUALLY DIE. It's not the breakup that hurts the most. It's the post trauma
that follows it. It's waking up and checking your phone for the SMS that is not
there.
Some birds are not meant to be caged, that's
all. Their feathers are too bright, their songs too sweet and wild. So you let
them go, or when you open the cage to feed them they somehow fly out past you.
And the part of you that knows it was wrong to imprison them in the first place
rejoices, but still, the place where you live is that much more drab and empty
for their departure....
So there it goes, I guess it's pretty much obvious why I go into
blogging again....talking about love and pain. Probably, I should not be
talking about this matter because it's been a long time since Reyar and I broke
up...it's just that, I still have feelings for him. Seriously, I can't deny the
fact on what's going on my mind tonight, thinking of why the guts I have can't
even stop me from chasing him. I'm trying to control my feelings over my
thoughts. I'm trying to restrain this crazy emotions that long time ago should
be forgotten...I CAN'T!! And that's the hardest thing I could ever do, nooo,
it's an easy thing to do, it's just the mind and body don't follow, and they
keep on tracking a hole to oppose my affection unto him.
So much for the drama, I'm trying to express this right now
because he's letting me go as in like LETTING GOOOOO, you know, strangers with
thousand of memories....isn't it cool right? Anyways, putting a gap is what he
wants, and okay fine, since we don't have the right to demand for something and
that's the only way to end up this messy relationship, let me give him the
right to grant what he wants... dunno know what to write in here, lots of
things bothering my mind and I find it hard to urge this thought into
words....but let me tell you honestly, I'm just afraid that maybe one day, I'll
find him happy with someone else and here I am still waiting for that one day
to come that I'll be good enough to someone else...because for now, he's all
I've been thinking of, he's all I need, nothing more, nothing less...his
presence and smiles are enough for me to let my world see the beauty of life.
Yea, I know it's a bit exaggerated..allow me to shout this through words
because I know this is the only thing I can do to express the sensation I felt
for himgot no one to talk to about this... I got nothing to do when his decision is firm...but to you Rey, thank
you...thank you for the insane feeling I got, maybe soon if ever our friendship
will grow (even just as small as a seed), we'll both laugh at this and create a
stronger bond, at least super duper learning experiences will never be erased between the two of us. I've been burdened
with blame trapped in the past for too long, and now, I'm moving on. If I didn't love you, this never would have happened. But I did. And accepting that love and
everything that followed it is part of letting it go.
Though time was able to escape from the cage of
our adventurous-a-bit-puppy-but-serious-love, I'm still not loosing hope
that it (time) will still come back unto us, and let both of us realize that LOVE
IS PATIENCE ENOUGH TO LET US FEEL THAT IT IS WORTH THE WAIT..... :)
-always loving you….RECHEL :)
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